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Post by japanesebird on Jan 6, 2013 2:51:07 GMT -5
i am a former musician; i say former because i have grown to despise music. [for the purposes of this thread, music shall be defined primarily as melody that expresses emotion]. there is no desire left in me to play music, because i have no emotion to express. i am no longer a person, he disappeared. likewise, there is no desire to hear music. hearing it is like being lured into a dream, and dreams are complex illusions.
all i enjoy now is the non-emotional sounds of the world, such as traffic, wind, electronics, cicadas, etc., and merzbow. i do not think merzbow is music, because i have never heard any recognizable emotion in it. perhaps there are some albums i haven't heard where he descended into the emotional realm. i think that merzbow is the expression of depersonalization, derealization, and detachment rather than emotion.
listening to merzbow is a deprogramming experience. the box set merzphysics, in particular, is very well suited for this. it scrambles your brain and makes music seem like a joke [to me, anyway].
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Post by Bucketfel on Jan 6, 2013 5:43:46 GMT -5
Some people think in the same way you do and i can understand that. When i listen to Merzbow, sometimes i go into the same real as you and somehow i come back... most of the times. I cant say much because im not a musician, not a former one at least. I enjoy making tablatures of songs, play guitar/bass/piano, and ive tried making my own music on sheets only, but ive never had any courage to put it out there.
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Post by japanesebird on Jan 6, 2013 16:09:53 GMT -5
Some people think in the same way you do and i can understand that. When i listen to Merzbow, sometimes i go into the same real as you and somehow i come back... most of the times. I cant say much because im not a musician, not a former one at least. I enjoy making tablatures of songs, play guitar/bass/piano, and ive tried making my own music on sheets only, but ive never had any courage to put it out there. to be honest, i let myself down and do listen to some "normal music" occasionally, haha, but i quickly get turned off by it. i was talking to someone about the issue today and mentioned merzbow. they asked, "can you sing along to it?" and i said "no, that's the point". when i get a song stuck in my head, i experience it more like a thought virus or meme rather than a pleasant thing. it is like i have turned retarded and cannot control my own thoughts but am dragged to and fro in frivolous melodies. i'm sure some will think that my thoughts on merzbow are pretentious, perhaps they are, but when i listen to it it seems very obvious that there is a definite ideology at work here - masami akita had a purpose and he has been masterfully unfolding it for decades. if there were not, i think there would be more forays into conventional melody, since he listens to "normal music" still and pop music from his youth that is nothing like his own creations. and i think it goes beyond the schwitters 'merz' concept and surrealism into the territory of which i speak - the annihilation of all normal music. it's an offering of an alternate musical reality, wherein the expression is not of emotion [at least, not mundane dualistic happy/sad emotion] but of a higher intuition and intelligence. obviously, there is a great chaotic element to it. what does this suggest? could it be an expression of what masami akita perceives to be the 'true nature' of reality beyond human interpretations? in other words, "normal musicians" write songs using melodies that express the experiences of one almost exclusively isolated within their own mind. their relationships with other humans and so forth, hence why almost all lyrics are "I-You" oriented, as if we cannot escape this fundamental self-consciousness that divides the world of exprience into me and not-me and my relations with not-me. i see merzbow as destroying this division of self-consciousness and expressing or capturing the chaos of the natural world which is beyond man.
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